One time I wanted something more than I wanted anything else in life. But it never came. So I waited. And waited. And waited. Still nothing.
Meanwhile, all of my friends got what I wanted. I begged God to hear me, to answer my prayers and give me my heart’s desire. Years went by, but He didn’t give it to me.
This is when I decided I was no longer waiting. I was going to get what I wanted no matter the cost, and I set out to do just that.
After two years of pursuing my desire in my own power and control, I still didn’t have what I wanted, but I did have a lifetime of regret.
I had let my hope become doubt.
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Doubt began to rule me.
I doubted God’s goodness and that He knew what was best for me. I believed the lie that He didn’t want me to have good things, and that He was even punishing me.
Have you ever doubted God?
Have you wondered whether God hears you, sees you, or is even present in your life?
At some point, doubt creeps into every believer’s thoughts.
When Jesus appeared to His disciples after His resurrection, their first reaction was one of doubt.
They were startled and frightened and thought they saw a spirit.
Jesus addresses his disciples’ doubt by saying, “Why are you troubled, and why do doubts arise in your hearts? See my hands and my feet, that it is I myself. Touch me, and see. For a spirit does not have flesh and bones as you see that I have.”
These are the same words He says to us when we face doubt.
First Jesus asks, “Why are you troubled? Why do doubts arise in your hearts?” When I had doubts about God’s goodness, I was greatly troubled. I was in anguish over living my future without what I wanted. But Jesus simply asks, “Why?”
Do I trust God is who He says He is and will do what He says He’ll do?
Then Jesus explains to the disciples why they shouldn’t be troubled. He proves His presence. Jesus has the disciples touch His physical body, but then He goes on to give them, and us, hope for when His physical body would no longer be there. He says, “For a spirit does not have flesh and bones.”
Here Jesus reminds us that He is always present even when we don’t feel His presence. When we gave our lives to Him, His spirit came and took residence in our hearts, and He never leaves.
We are going to doubt God at some point in our relationship with Him. However, it’s how we respond to that doubt that matters.
In my personal example, I responded by trying to gain control of my circumstances. I went down this path for enough time that it led me to regret.
Next time you doubt God, own it and then confess it to God. Say to Him, “I do believe; help me overcome my unbelief” (Mark 9:24). Don’t allow doubt to become a stronghold in your thoughts, leading you down a path of regret. Keep your mind fixed on the truth that Jesus is always present, aware, and working in your circumstances.