Do you think it is possible to truly surrender all your expectations, dreams, and desires to God?
For too many years I proclaimed that God was my Lord while resisting surrendering everything to Him. It’s no surprise I felt the need to be in control, especially in the aftermath of my childhood marred by abuse. It was my survival strategy to determine every next move and make sure it came to fruition. From the outside, it looked like drive and perseverance, but when you pull back the layers, it was really an unhealthy habit rooted in lies. I believed I had to be my own protector. I was convinced it was up to me to make anything good ever come to fruition in my life.
The problem with that kind of stinking thinking is that my life was riddled with unrealistic expectations for myself and everyone else along with an endless amount of disappointment.
I was continually measuring my performance. I was consistently striving towards a fairy book dream. My perfect little house was never quite perfect, never mind dream of a white picket fence. My well-behaved and perfectly dressed children never existed. My husband was never quite devoted to me in the way I thought he should be.
My childhood ideas of what life should be like could never measure up to my reality.
I never took into consideration details like earning an income, caring for a house, struggling with health, and healing from heart wounds.
Maybe you can relate.
Maybe your expectations – even dreams – haven’t measured up to your reality.
Well, then, let me ask you a question God impressed upon my heart to release me from my expectations.
Is it possible that God has given you the desires of your heart, but they are packaged differently than you expected?
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